Thank you for a Friend

I have to give a big thanks to an internet friend. She's someone I met a few months ago on a group on Goodreads, she's awesome, she's young and brillant and positive. It's sometimes hard when you're a little more mature (ehem! LOL) but you get a little jaded. I know I got a little jaded but this person told me something to do and I don't regret that I took her advice. In so many words, she told me to stop, calm down, and just live. So I did first I calmed down and decided to live in the moment and enjoy my life. And I didn't regret it. I hate to bliss and tell, LOL. Personally I think that may have done poor Sandra Bullock's marriage in. But I'm happy not just with me but with my partner. He's a wonderful, sweet, sensitive, funny, and intelligent man. He's shown me what it means to be loved and appreciated for who you are. Everyday is an adventure but best of all, everyday is fun and he's so dang calm, he's actually calmed by spirit. So thank you to my friend Maya, I owe this happiness I currently have to something you told me a few months ago. And I don't want to not acknowledge you, you deserve it.

Book Review

Goodreads Eugenia Mitchell (blk_dahlia) (Seattle, WA)'s review of Messalina: Devourer of Men: "I want to first thank Zetta Brown for writing an interesting, smart, real, complex erotic story. Your book is what I really wish more erotica would be, maybe then it would get more respect as a genre. I wasn't just put on some sexual ride, with a thin story inserted in every couple of pages with a paragraph or two to make it a book instead of porno. Although I have nothing against pornography. LOL.

Jared and Eva had a love story with some really great sex thrown in. It was an exploration for both of them into painful past, asserting themselves as adults, stopping trying to make others happy and doing things out of habit. I loved the story and the powerful sexual content just was icing on the cake. She took it there with grown folks who loved sex and weren't afraid to say it or express it one another. It's sometimes hard for me to believe in romance that a person who loves someone isn't always trying to get it on with them, sex is an expression of love. I love the story of Eva and her blossoming as to a woman who lived and loved for herself.

You know as I read this book, I kept thinking this woman has been peeping on my life. I also had to break out from under my own false image I was living to be an adult and if other adults don't like it or if family questions it, it's there problem not mine. Eva found she could respect who she really was and still respect her family. It's not impossible. I loved it from beginning to end, it was powerful, that's the only way I could describe it. She wrote a real woman and man in love and the complications that come with that as we try to find out how we do the right thing for ourselves and living our lives and taking risks that in the end work out.

I loved it. I cannot wait for Ms. Brown's next book."

Now, what happens?

Now, that I am in a relationship and no longer dating, what now? I am in love with a wonderful man and if you want to know who I choose to date it was guy who was 3 years younger than me instead of the 23 year old. We have things in common and he's a sweet, generous, intelligent, fun man. 360 degree difference between him and my ex-husband. I'm a little surprised that we found each other, I was shocked that men like him still existed. Now isn't that a sad state of affairs, but he is wonderful. But it's not like he's perfect but then again neither am I. As the Grace Jones song says 'I'm Not Perfect, but I'm Perfect for You'. We are getting to know each other and taking the time to do so. Now we have birthdays one day apart, which was just strange but we are very similar to each other. I used to think 'opposites attract' but believe me that's a lie, 'opposites fight and make each other miserable'. LOL.
Now, what I'm doing is living in the moment. Which I must say I have not always been at ease doing. I'm usually in planning mode with my life but I have come to discover in my old age, when I plan, God laughs. So I live each day anew. Now, for all of the ladies still out there. I can still impart some of my hard fought wisdom, LOL. No not really, I know just about as much as any woman knows who's been on this earth for awhile and dated a couple of dudes. Although some of my stories are hilarious. Now, I can tell them but the names have been changed to protect the guilty, the innocent got what they needed, innocence.