I most certainly do not mean the kind that you need figure out 'how low can you go'. My life is in limbo, which I cannot stand. By my nature, I'm a planner, I'm always planning or thinking of plan or implementing a plan. I have a hard time in a sense 'staying still', I want things to happen and really I'd like for them happen when I want them to happen. But right now I'm a state of limbo. Now Matt and I will be getting married in September but I'm not kidding when I say, I haven't made a move on the wedding. The reason for that is well, I'm a bit of procrastinator that's a bad habit but the other portion is we're figuring out when and where we're going to move. When I mean move, I don't mean make moves. I mean pack up and move. Matt would like for us to have a bigger place to live together but while I'm in limbo that can't happen. The reason that can't happen is because I'm waiting for information for a job I've been kinda, sorta interviewing for these last couple of months. I've been talking to the person over the position for the last couple of months but they couldn't give me a job because the job hadn't been posted or budgeted for. Now that things are completed, the job has been posted and I've applied and I am now waiting for a yah or nay! I wasn't promised anything but I was a leading candidate but that don't mean anything when the rubber hits the road and I'm not in the habit of counting my chickens before they've hatched either. So who knows but I'm just waiting, the whole application process started this week and I'm just in limbo. I'm really interested in this job and wanted to apply for it because it would be an opportunity for me to do the career change I've been wanting to do for so long, moving into the non-profit sector. I'm not actually moving because the job will come with a free place to live, I can't move until I interview then they make up their minds on whether they want to hire me or not. It also means until I figure out whether or not I have a full-time job instead of my now part-time teaching job, I'm not going to start putting any money down regarding wedding plans. A new full time job will totally change the budget in my household and for the better, so those plans are on hold for now. The wedding plans part, I'm not so worried about, our wedding is going to be such a small event, you barely need a plan. I could plan the whole wedding on a paper napkin and still have room. It's just that I can't stand this limbo thing I'm going through. I'm impatient and I'd just like move but the limbo won't last long and certainly not forever. I figure within a month or less, we'll be moving right along but the meantime I'm trying to woo-sah thing to get myself together. Come on everybody, breath with me, woo-sah or limbo! You choose.
Yea, that would be reason to be in a limbo. I hope you find out about the job position sooner than later, and good luck with the wedding plans.
ReplyDeleteThanks Integrated, it's tough. Patience is certainly not a virtue I possess LOL. But this is something I really want to do, so I'm willing to wait.
ReplyDeleteI understand when you say limbo. I'm right there with you. I'm at a crossroads right now in my life. I know what I want to do but the opportunity has yet to present itself. I'm doing what I need to be doing to get it but if it's meant to happen it will. If it's not there is a reason and probably a better opportunity waiting. Good luck to you.
ReplyDeleteCheri, I'm wishing you luck and blessings too. Because yes it can be 'interesting' at the crossroads. I may blog about that because suddenly at the age of almost 40 I've decided to think of myself as a professional something I didn't shun before but I just thought never applied to me but I'm feeling good about that moniker now LOL. I'm also feeling good that I've decided to define success in a way that fits my life and personality. Yea this is definitely a new blog I'll be writing look for it soon and thanks.
ReplyDeleteYou're welcome.I'll look out for that new blog. This is such a great site!
ReplyDeleteGIRL! You better get off your patooty and plan that wedding. You'd be surprised at how much planning even a small affair could be. You want it to extra special with no, "I wish I would have done xyz, right?" Focus on the things you CAN control, like planning the wedding! By the way, am I invited or what? ;-)
ReplyDelete@Christelyn LOL, oh no Mama Chris man I'm in trouble now. I know I need to make it happen but I'm the most un-wedding girl ever. Well, if you can make it you can come, you'll have to fit in with all the family and friends that are showing up. Good lord between the two of our families we could populate a small country. LOL. But we're thinking really small, maybe just him and me and some parents. But there's gonna be a big party next summer (b/c we'll never be forgiven by any family member if we don't have something with free food and liquor), you're definitely invited to that. But I'm going to get it on, no worries.
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